Things don't exist

I, I want so badly,
To say that these things dont exist anymore.
When that indigo
Creeps upon me i cant deny
That i'm blue,
And not like you

When I look into your eyes at times
It's within them i find
A love i never knew,
Still i'm bound to you.
Something inside so strong,
Wont settle in me somehow, i'm not free.

I want so badly, to say that these things dont exist anymore.
When that indigo creeps apon me i cant deny
That i'm blue.

It's past mistakes not hearts that break,
In moral laws respect they take and
Now
It still effects me to.
If my one enemy is me,
Then tell me how to stay true and not be blamed by you.