Blessed in contempt

Slowly as the years go by, the darkness builds inside
Trying to find a passage out, before I lose my mind
Ingestuous temptation but what is wrong or right
Why must I fall victim of hereditary spite

Soon! We will arise, forming despise
Conceptual intent
Blessed in contempt!

Thoughts have now come back to me
It's time to perpetrate
take me to my sanity, before it gets too late
Hear me as I call to you, right here down below
Resurrect my will to live, come before I... go!